| 06/2/09 Visiting DeviantArt again, still nothing posted. i actually have a few pieces of work I could submit now. Because of my life for reasons too long and unbelievable for anyone who lives a normal life I've been forced in to the role of the lurker, here and on every other forum and site I've been to. I'm saddened by it, but there is little I can do. For anyone who reads this, 1.) holy crap how's you get here? and 2.) thank you for reading this. see, like the original concept of my username here, I have two different spirits that act on me at any time they choose to. One will always flow through my, until it switches off to the other. Long story short, I'm a girl and a guy, and I don't know what to do with myself. As it is, only half of me is artistic, and although that half has been gaining strength and acting on my mind more and more, it may still be some time before I can dedicate myself to do anything artful and finish it, instead of only getting, half-way. Please don't offer your two cents and Confucian wisdom that implies I'm lazy or I'm a hypocrite or I'm naive, etc etc, so on and blah blah, you get the idea. I fight with myself everyday, and because of that I'm instantly hostile with anyone that believes they know the problem and the solution. Unless you've gone through the same emotions I have, please don't go there. I'm giving a fair warning, I'm a very civil and knowledgeable person, but if someone accidentally caught me in a hyper-sentimental mood (which I've been for the past few days) it could get ugly very fast, and nobody wants that. I would appreciate your thoughts on this though, surprising considering what I just finished saying. I just don't want anyone being arrogant or stupid around me, I'm sick of that enough as it is. But yes, comments are appreciated, just please be nice. You have no idea what I've been through and still going through, and I'm not particularly inclined to disclose my life anywhere outside my diary, so like i said, please be nice. ^_^ I hope someday I will usurp my dad's scanner and get my pictures here at the very least. Maybe tomorrow, providing nothing happens... oh, no, my dad's staying home tomorrow. Sunday maybe. Also, if you're wondering about my sexuality, i really can't say anything definite on that now. Normally I'd say male, but since I found a guy who i love more than my life right now, everything's different. <3 I feel like saying more, but idk what else to say. It's 4 am right now, so I think it's WAY past time for me to go to bed. Just too emotional tonight to have slept earlier. <sigh> 03/28/09 Hey, I made this account a year ago. Right now the date is 03/28/09, and this is the first time I've gotten back on this account since I created it. Many things have changed since then. Among them a new flare for art. Something of which I have always loved, but it has been a slow process of changing my mindset from merely enjoying it to actually drawing the pictures in my head. I managed to find this account with the hope in mind that I can finally start drawing for me, and not for other reasons. I've made one dream come true, so I want to make this one come true as well. To draw, and draw well. And love every minute of it. Wish me luck. I'm going to need it. |
Actually came back for once.
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"Where there is light, there is darkness." - Skies of Arcadia, Ramirez
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"After night there is day." - Amazing Grace
"Where there is light, there is darkness." - Skies of Arcadia, Ramirez
"Be who you are because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." A member of DeviantArt
(please tell me who you are!
and welcome to the wonderful world of DA
May happiness be with you and may the stars be with you!
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Have a good sniff around my sisters and cousins page and artworks they are really good.
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